I think I’m slowly falling for you- you’re perfect but so not what I want right now. I’m scared because I’m still scarred, but I can’t help how I feel. I’m also scared of myself and what I could to do you. I don’t trust myself. I wish I came with a warning label “beware”. I wish you’d know how I’ve hurt and fucked guys over in the past- at least I think I did. I wish you weren’t who you are to me. I wish there wasn’t so much on the line. I wish things weren’t so complicated and that the timing wasn’t the way it is. I wish you knew more about yourself and carried less baggage wherever you go. I’ve always thought of having you and now that I do…I don’t want it. I want it. But I don’t want it. I’m not ready. I don’t like the feelings attached with all of this romance stuff. I can’t take it. I don’t like the suspense, the possible feeling of rejection, the anxiety…the bad.
I want you to take a step back and not do this. I want to take a step back myself. I don’t know if Ill be able to but I so want to.